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few days!Yesterday,the only time I saw him was when I was preparing for performance..He was up at the Gallery.After that,NO MORE-Dance was at 3.30pm yesterday.Ended at 5pm.I went down to canteen.Saw mel,YingHui,Harvey and Jia Rong.Left my stuffs at their table,turned to the other table,sat there.Thinking..Missing..Waiting..Then all of a sudden an overwhelming sadness came over me.shoots-And I couldn't stop crying!Damns-Stupid Chelsie.
Since last night,I was VERY MOODY!Till today..went to school,still with that darn black face.My first laughter was during P.E.Andrew Yeo 'tortured' us with a MINOR physical.shoots-We were laughing all the way.Till after P.E..Heading to the canteen.Was walking with my head down.When I raised my head to look,it's as if there's a shine right at the end of the canteen.Guess what!Saw him STRAIGHT AWAY-It totally made me back to square one-
Jun Kai asked me to forget about him and live my life like before.But the bloody problem is,before knowing him,which is like..sec2?I was with Sally and friends.But now,Sal and me had many misunderstandings and all.So jing shi bu tong wang ri,we aren't that close now.That makes me alone?But of course there's Tang and Min.Tang's always with the class in the canteen.And that's where he is!Min is with Joan.Chelsie is with HIM most of the time[IN THE PAST LAR]!So that's why my NORMAL life is with HIM!What am I to do?!My whole sec3 life was spent with him.And I missed it alot.I got so emotional after answering JK and cried on the spot.It happens always when I start thinking of the past.I cried till my min came.She encouraged me,I stood up,'drenched' , took my bag and 'hooked' tang away.Min went on with her recess.I guess lots saw me in tears?In the toilet,the image in the mirror totally shocked me.I couldn't believe myself.I look like a zombie!A real pale one with heavy eyebags[tears,lack of sleep]!I feel so useless!I was always able to hide all my sadness in school when I encounter problems in life.But,I don't know why I just couldn't hide this PROBLEM!arghs.So angry with myself.Worst thing is,whenI'm out of toilet,the same thing happened.raised head.Saw him.STRAIGHT-
Please.It ain't that easy forgetting him.One that went through lots of things with you.One that been to many places with you.One that waits for you after lessons/dance.One that never fails to cheer you up.One that was always there for you.One that greets you everyday without fail with that cheery smile.One that has made lots of memories on you.One that puts you first in everything.One that showers you with SOOO much LOVE.One that's so LOVABLE!One that does 'march pass' every night after study at Hg Pt.shoots-This list can never end!It reminds me of him wherever and whenever.At home,I remember him texting me,calling me.In the room,by the window,seeing him downstairs doing dumb stuffs!In school,every corner was images of us.Just point in any direction,I can tell you what we did there.shoots-Even on the way home,there'll be this blurred image of him walking by my side.SO scary rights?!I'm really missing him lots mans!
But f***ed up Chelsie broke his heart,thinking that she didn't LOVE him anymore.Hahas.The whole holidays were just me missing him!Seriously,I wasn't prepared for the fact that he has a girl now. People says I'm a wicked woman.Broke his heart and wants him back-Do you think I want?It has never occured to me that HE had secretly became part of my life.He had the holidays to forget me.That's easy,cause he won't get to see me.I've got the starting of an important year to forget him?!Tell me who's able to succeed?!
Chels prayed to share his heartbreak during the break-off day.Cause I know,he loved me alot.And he would be DEVASTATED TOO-TA-DAHH!The prayer came true!!And here I am,suffering.Whees~!Nice one Chels-
You know I don't like going home after school.In the past,after school was what I longed for.Cause I'd be able to be with him all the way!But now,after-school was sadness.No more him waiting for me at the end of the canteen,lunch together,jokes,Tong Aik.I indirectly caused the split of the brother.And I AM GUILTY!Seeing him in school,no one to talk to,makes me real hurt.Can't help but blame myself.
